Drew Barrymore Held Shame for Her Past as a 'Blackout Drinker': 'I Put Myself in Situations I Shouldn't Have'

The actress shared how Zoë Kravitz's 'Blink Twice' subject matter "affected" her "personally"

Drew Barrymore is opening up about how the movie Blink Twice helped her reflect on her past.

The actress had Zoë Kravitz on her daytime talk show Tuesday, Sept. 10, and told Kravitz, who makes her directorial debut with Blink Twice, how the thriller "really affected me personally."

"There's a lot about substances in the film. I was shocked to realize that part of my journey that I was looking to find, the trauma inside of me and what is it about, a big part of it was I used to be a blackout drinker," Barrymore, 49, said.

She went on to say that watching the movie "was an extraordinary journey for me to forgive myself, because I've put myself in situations I shouldn't have put myself in."

"And I felt so much shame about that, and I haven't had a drink in five years," said Barrymore.

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Barrymore told Kravitz, 35, of Blink Twice, "It is not only a film about the things that can happen to us, but it made me think about the things we've done to ourselves."

"Was there any part of you that was aware of that in making it? Because there are so many messages being brought up here," she said.

After responding, "Yes, absolutely," Kravitz added, "The substances were, I think, more of a way to get the characters to the most vulnerable place possible. When you let yourself go and you lose yourself it's so easy for things to spiral out of control."

"To your point as well, when we allow ourselves to be in those kind of situations there is so much shame when we get to the other side," she continued. "So we make mistakes, we hurt ourselves, we get hurt by others and then often times we are left to deal with the consequences on our own."

"There's always that feeling or idea [of], 'Well you drank it, you got on the plane, you wore the short skirt,' and it's just so much more complicated than that," the Big Little Lies star explained.

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Blink Twice, also co-written by Kravitz, stars her fiancé Channing Tatum as Slater King, a tech billionaire who’s trying to rehab his image after being accused of wrongdoing.

At a gala, Slater meets waitress Frida (Naomi Ackie). He soon whisks her, a friend (Alia Shawkat) and other women to his private island with his fratty hangers-on (played by Christian Slater, Simon Rex, Haley Joel Osment and Levon Hawke).

Kravitz, who got engaged to Tatum, 44, last year, told PEOPLE in August that watching the man she loves play a bad guy was “awesome."

"He was doing such a good job, and as an actor, I'm like, ‘This is delicious stuff that he's never gotten a chance to do,' " the Batman actress added. "And also, he's doing this part because he's an ally. He wants to tell this story.”

Blink Twice is in theaters now.

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